I was hanging by a thread… my world hanging below me, out of focus as I spun uncontrollably by the thought processes that closed all around me.

I was lost, with no route to a plan, shrouded in darkness as tears wetted my face. The evil fears clambered across my face with their inky fingers, wounding my head and pressing in hard.

It would all soon be over I told myself; someone would help me, guide me and offer their protection. Or, the spinning and inky fingers of fear would win and the pain would stop.

And yet, through the mist of the fear, a bright light was glowing, calling, offering hope or direction or something more than what the fear was offering.

The Light had power, it slowed the spinning enough for me to keep it in view, turning me head back and forth.

And somehow, the Light pierced the clamouring voices of fear all around me, causing them to quieten down and then, a memory, a promise, an Answer.

The spinning came to a holt, and I dangled high above my world and all that I loved. I saw a home, garden and children playing, giggling all safe and happy. It was not the current truth but a future one, the future I wanted.

Facing the Light once more, I began to understand the thoughts, memories and words that were beginning to form. The Answer I was looking for finally became clear in tone and direction, ‘Abide in Me, trust in Me, and I will give you back TENFOLD what the locusts have taken’.

My world spun out of control at the disclosure of sexual abuse against my young daughter by her father, my first husband. I kept my faith, family and future by God’s grace alone who met me on the verge of nervous breakdown. Read my true life account of love, hope and prayer in my quest to defeat the ‘locusts’ coup’ that tried to take everything from me. https://www.amazon.co.uk/Locusts-Coup-Mothers-Spiritual-Journey-ebook/dp/B0GJTKMLH1 or contact me via https://www.stephaniebaxterministries.co.uk

Thank you

Stephanie